Just heard this statement, “in order to heal you need to be able to feel.”
How often in our journeys do we wrestle with uncomfortable emotions that we don’t know what to do with? Recently, I’ve been doing some intense shadow work. I’m acknowledging rather than stuffing down some really tough feelings. Feelings of inadequacy, loneliness, disappointment, and frustration have made me feel like I’m wading through mud that comes up to my thighs. Getting through every day is like this long, hard slog that isn’t yielding fruit that matches my efforts and investment.
So, I decided to give in. Rather than fighting to “not feel” sad, mad or depressed I just sit with it, acknowledge it, I understand why those feelings are there and that no matter what I do I cannot change the situations that are causing these feelings within me. And, how human is it that I am simultaneously feeling a deep sense of gratitude for the joy that other people get to experience in the areas that I suffer in? We are complex creatures. Light and dark all at the same time. And, I think it would behoove me to understand that just like the sun’s position in the sky determines how far a shadow is cast and how long it is and such….the same is true for me. The position of light and the fragments and facets it’s shining through at any given time will produce varying lengths of shadow that I’m able to see.
For now I just know I have to stop chasing my shadow. I have to sit with the uncomfortable feelings. If I’m gonna heal from my disappointments I’m gonna have to “learn” “how” to feel this pain. It’s the only way it’s going to integrate. And that’s the only way I will be able to move forward.
Feel me?
Cozett
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